.Thursday, July 26, 2007 ' 10:04 AM♥.
It's been quite a long time since my heart went thru a marathon race. Yes, indeed, a very long time... Yesterday is a day where my heart went for a race. How amazing it is..
In the whole of my 21 yrs of life, i've been thru quite a number of relationships. But only 2 men could make my love life so... how should i put them in words... So Wonderful.. Let me briefly sae thru how they made me so much in love with them and still till now, they stand such such important places in my heart.
1) Junlin
I did not mention to a lot of people abt this person. This person is my ex, the one before Steven. He is the only guy, whom i have rebelled with my parents. The only guy, whom actually make my heart race, whenever i see him and kiss him... He is someone, whom can make me laugh at anything.. Yes, Anything.. be it jokes, nonsense...etc.. He is a wonderful guy, whom i have hated him for 1 whole yr but heart soften when he calls me up. True as it is..
I know, many will tell me, "Hey! You are now happily married, with a son. How could you still love another guy, treating Steven as invisible?" I know, i am wrong.. Emotion have gone out of track when i should one heartedly love only Steven. But love is not something which one can control... Love is not something which once can put a stop to it. Thou he is not highly educated, but i love him, not for the level of education he has. I love him, not for how good looking he is. I love him, not for how good his England is. I love him, for how he is like. I love him, for the kinda charm which i couldn't find from other guys. That is why i love him.
Currently, the both of us are still in contact. And we both bless each other for happiness. Maybe there is one thing that none will know about us. We 2 are similar in certain ways. We do not like to lure trouble. And we do keep problems in our heart. This is how similar we are. Probably, like what people had said," 我们曾经是恋人 。我们爱过彼此，也疼过彼此。可是，现在的我们以不能爱彼此。真是有缘无分。好悲伤."
Till now, he stand 1/3 of love in my heart. This 1/3 of love will be kept somewhere there for me to let me remember those happy moments, whenever i will want to.
2) Steven
This man is the man i am now married to. He too stand 1/3 of love in my heart. This love will always be there for me & him, till the day we die.
He is the kinda man where you will have to nag him to move him. Indeed, he is poor. But sincere move ones heart. I have mentioned to many people about him and many knows him. Thus i do not have to mention much about him.
Finally, that remaining 1/3 goes to my boy, Jayden!!
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