.Monday, May 18, 2009 ' 10:14 AM♥.
Yup i noe i have neglected my blog.. Not updating, not posting onli plurking.. What the hell am i doing?? So sorry, i am busy with my work, my kids and my life.
Both my kids are down with cough and flu, almost the whole family is down.. My lil' brother oso down with cough till ytd, made double boiled pear for Jayden and my lil' brother.. Will post this receipe later on when i double boil again..
Den i have made brocolli puree dor Shermes, in which, Jayden wanted too.. Thus, tonite i will be making carrot puree.. Will post on this tml..
Hubby went to Genting over the weekend.. Haiz.. Ppl asked me, "why he nv bring you go?? Why you nv ask him to bring you go??"
Please, you nv i nv kao bei meh?? I kao bei so mani times and get myself hurt so mani times, yet, wad is the results?? Onli i will noe.. Ppl see the surface and dun see the inner.. How mani times i wanted to go enjoy myself, but end up gave up on the tots.... Ppl wun see it.. To me, what i wanted now is not those material things, is a house, a HOUSE!!! i had enuff of staying under ppl's roof and having to look at ppl's face before you do anything.. Who will care?? No one but myself.. Haiz..
Ya ya, ppl will say, "quit whining and blame yourself!" Fine, i blame myself.. Probably, i should even disappear from this world and be all alone myself.
Whoever who dun understand me, plz dun tell me what to do.. I hate to be told what to do when i noe myself too well..
Haiz.. Forget it.. too much whining makes ppl puke..
On a lighter side, I've got a daughter.. erm, to be exact, GOD-DAUGHTER.. She is Valerie! Yup, Bell's daughter is my god-daughter.. Hehe... I am gonna have mani mani mani god-daughter since i dun have any...
A note to myself: All these while, i have been thinking abt 1 matter.. That is to adopt a girl to be my daughter.. But there are a lot of things which i need to consider abt. How to break to her tat, she is not my biological daughter? If i were to break to her tat i am not her biological mummy, how will she react? Will she go look for her biological parents? Will she not want me aftermath? Haiz.. too mani things... Shall see how...사랑해
